all alone at home, she plays with her skills of mastery...

at home i feel alone,
at home i am who i am.
cogito, ergo sum.

dez. 2.2009

1. by me
second. ?

if you would go away till christmas, i would going to be happy...

i've been working on a piece that speaks of sex and desperation. i've been screwing on the tracks of abandoned train stations. one, two, three, four..

...art starrrr...

art star reflect my current mental state in a creativ way, i feel tired and faint, no magical power in my bones...

stella mccartney f09

free we are in a better world, at home, all alone.

frei sind wir,
bestrahlt mit neuntausend atomen
in einer besseren welt.
durch den schrank, vorbei an alten fellen, alten büchern, alten werten,
rein in den schnee,
die weiße, kalte reinheit,
pur wie eis auf nackter haut,
kalt wie die seele von ihr.

the first day of christmas feelings

today was the first day with that special christmas spell in the air...
finally i bought the black sexualiti tee in +3 and the black jersey cycle shorts,
i also bought an amazing advent calendar.
i enjoy the christmas charm.

you think it's alright but the appearances are deceiving.

that's what i wore today and i really feel the pre christmas time furthermore i realized that i looked like carrie today.

haltet mich ihr lieben kräfte
denn mein herz schon wieder schmal
können das die mädchen
denn überhaupt
(behaupten)?
tako tsubo
tako tsubo
unsubscribe me
from the news
meine ruhe
meine ruhe
hiermit übergebe ich
diesen mädchen
ausgehungert
ausgestreckt
mein schmales herz.

lichtung
die tage auf dem land werden immer länger, denn lo kann nicht mehr schlafen. sie versucht nachts unter dem leinlaken sich ihren engel vorzustellen. er legt sich auf sie und schmiegt seine kühle wange an ihre, dann gleitet sie an ihm entlang in die wölbung seiner riesigen flügel, sie fällt hinein in die lieblich weiche falle, die flügel aus weißen schwanenfedern schließen sich.

/// aus 'die anstalt der besseren mädchen' seite 122&123 von julia zange.

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alles droht zusammen zu brechen. das dach bricht, die wände bröckeln, das schloss wird alt, ist alt. sie sitzt in der ecke und weint. die bahnen werden weitläufiger, unübersichtlicher, sie bleibt einfach sitzen.

eagle or hawk, no matter for me. both of them are wild and free.

little break. the next post will come in some days because i have just so little time.

oh beauteousness. . .oh ghost play in the shadow. . .

oh sunday evening,
i'm sitting in my room.
fondle my hair
and hiding my bones.
oh sunday evening,
i have nothing to do,
sunday evening which waste,
how wilful i do.
like you.

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don't forget this annika, spunk and spook will be never the same.
///

when i wake up and i don't feel so good. stay in bed and play hollywood...

everything arround me is fuzzy and dull
i can't see the world how i want...

say hi to daul forever...

(not my best drawings but i'm still ill)

daul wrote a lot, at oct. 29.09 she worte this:
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as is

i stand across the light

holding plastic bags

i respond to the man i dont know who smiles at me

i dont exist

only something almost near perfection

i dont even move my head and

i dont even jay walk in front of the police car.

as it is.

like this.

das maedchen.

i can't see clear
and i can't hear.
everything is brumous.

i hear you hushed
i see you slightly

i feel sick
i am.

///

everything by me.

soundless howl.

///
i have drawn her because she was awesome.

i don't feel up to the mark. so maybe i need a little break for few days...

september 2009.
me by alissa/julia.

trough of Icelandic low pressure

2nd hand coat & h&m trend icebear jumper.

anywho

breakfast, blue sky and bubbly afternoon.

grey hiking boots or black overknees?

grrr, i'm a wild thing...

"grr, i'm a monster" laura said and jumped allover the bed with hair in her face and a huge fluffy jumper on her tiny, bony body.

the girl said "you said all things pass into the night. and i say; oh no sir, i must say, you are wrong. i must disagree, oh no sir, you are wrong."

or a boy, a girl and two white horses...

crawling on your knees, das tier.

everything is fine, everything is just wonderful. listen to the song and enjoy your rest weekend.

it's sunday and i can do what ever i want....

it's sunday and i can do what ever i want.
i was in the forest, i jumped over a rivulet and felt like a wild thing. it was awesome.

///it's me and a girl.

in the night she wears she wolf suit.

abby lee k. shot daniel jackson for dazed & confused december 09.

till friday the 13th.

blackkitten

midnight blue velvet. midnight blue velvet. midnight blue velvet. friday the 13th. friday the 13th. friday the 13th.

...i bought this amazing midnight blue velvet dress on monday. and i already know when to wear it...